Womens-Place

Bang Bang on the Door Baby…

Laughter, oh the smiles and joy that comes from seeing a little one belly laugh just does me in!  Tonight I Skyped with my Gracie girl in Hershey as she was lying in her hospital bed. I got our family gathered around the computer and we just talked.  How kids are just full of life just amazes me.  Adults are really funny. We tend to just get so caught up in so many issues that never seem to ever end.  We lose our joy so fast.  We lose sight of the end of the turmoil but kids, man, they just seem to know nothing more than joy, hope and they have so much faith that they know that it  will get better. Yet, I see this little one going though so much and yet there is so much joy in the midst of her sever pain she smiles through it.

Tonight I wanted to make her laugh.  I decided to do what I know Grace loves best. Mommy being crazy is her best medicine.  I started telling her she was my little love baby and that I was going to bang down her door and take her to my love shack…where we can get together and and just have some fun!  So I decided again to You Tube the

B-52’s Love Shack…so the music starts, we sing and dance…Grace is jamming, arms moving, giggles are coming out, mommy is dancing in her chair, singing from Gracie, singing from mommy is filling the room…nurse comes in and thinks it is great.  We get to the part of Bang bang on the door baby…it gets louder and louder and the release as she is screaming it is relieving the pressure from her soul…she is looking intense and freedom is coming to her as she is singing it. By the end of the song she had been moving limbs, heart rate up and NO head pain what so ever!

I told my sweet amazing Grace that we keep fighting, we keep banging on that door for answers, we NEVER give up…she tells me “okay mommy” “we keep banging on the door, okay”  That is right never give up, never lose hope…once you lose, you become an open target.

Later on, I called to say good night…she told me she loved to go to sleep…she said when I go to sleep the angels come and sing and dance all around me mommy and I talk with them and they talk with me. Do I believe her? You bet your tooshy I do.  So Grace wants to know what door you need to be banging on?