Healthy Dependency $15 gift card to Amazon.com
Healthy dependency? What in the world is that you ask? Well, I was going to ask you that. See, that is what I am learning. Healthy dependency is this new phase of life for me. A very interesting realm that I have never even come close to walking in. I think always being VERY independent and strong natured this new term and way of life is a struggle for me.
I have always been the giver, the caretaker, the strong one…the one who rebounds very fast from trials and tribulations pretty fast. However; when I go through situations such as this issue with my daughter Gracie being very ill in the hospital, with my husband being gone almost 4 weeks now with her…I have this horrible habit of NOT asking for help when needed. I do and go full throttle. I feel as it is a bother to others when I ask. There is also a guilt I carry that I should somehow be able to do it all. Well, I am not sure WHY I think that way, but I wanted to throw it out there to just say I am where I am in this walk of life. Hoping that exposing myself somehow someway will help someone else win a battle in their own life. Is it fear of rejection? Is it pride? Is it just being stubborn? Is it because I am just so worn down that I am not thinking straight or is it something I am just needing to walk out?
On the other hand I have begged for some help and have heard many times I am busy, not today, I am sorry but I am swamped…so then I think I am a bother. So then I form this “oh Jeeze” syndrome and think I am not asking anyone else. This is so not a good thing. (Yes, I know I am just rambling) Finding a balance when you are in the midst of upheaval is so important. One must learn the art of obtaining this thing I am so desperately trying to learn, Healthy Dependency. Sounds easy enough, yeah…now to make this my goal. Day by day reaching out letting others know my needs, fears, wants, weaknesses…showing vulnerabilities…these things hold me accountable to dear friends, even strangers to take steps forward to obtain a healthy dependency.
So I would love to hear back from you as to what YOUR personal definition is of Healthy Dependency is. If you leave a comment you will be entered into a drawing. The drawing will be randomly drawn on Sunday night at 6pm eastern time. The prize will be a $15 gift card to Amazon.com
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